Hictopia

by Sofia Zadar

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1.
Polymyth 03:24
De la luna llena Rayos-raices se hunden en la tierra. De la luna llena Muere y renace nuestro antiguo enlace. i sarka i sofia o ergatis o frontistis to plasma i syneidisi i aisthisi i diasyndesi The future as the string she folds When she fidgets her fingers. The future as the forms they mold When they play with the dirt. The future as the words we speak To each other in solace The nurture, the unravelling. No parents, sin hijos, doar noi, hilos de hermanas inseparables, zestes kai igres, indistinguishable one from the other, glorios de nediscriminate, promiscuas y fusionadas. Fără generații. Sin futuro, sin pasado. An endless geographic plane, cuantos pulsantes de micromalla. Folds and foldings, diplóseis kai anadiplóseis, plicare, replicare.
2.
Nostos 03:27
Took me a lifetime my moon pearl, I know I’ve been such an abysmal friend… I’m here at last. To wander our wildness unbound And offer you constancy, comfort and trust. I see your heart. Forget what’s important just once in a while To sit with a feeling and quiet the mind. It can be as easy as asking ”Babe, what do you need? I’m here To give space, steal time!” Quietly saunter my love, No harm can alter your mountainous soul. You know your glow. Scatter your insight, my wise We’ll meet on the verge of worlding our worlds To nurture on Forget what’s important just once in a while To sit with a feeling and quiet the mind. It can be as easy as asking ”Babe, what do you need? I’m here To give space, steal time!” Hold on At times sorrow has me kneeling Will it stop me from believing That I can contain this feeling Will it wilt inside me? Hold on How do you intend to hold me When your own misfortune taunting Weighs too heavy on your forehead?
3.
RED 03:30
Finally given up on the mythology Of every ache being my own doing Raging at the causes to this injury Will eat me up or finally shape my dignity It’s not just you and I Centuries of patterns made us But when you harm and smile It’s hard to want to care for you. Wrath rush running to my head I see you win and I see red Wrath rush running to my head I wanna watch you burn Wrath rush running to my head I wanna watch you eat yourself Wrath rush running to my head I wanna watch you &%* I will not construct you as an enemy I see your contradictions and your misery But rage without a home returns within And I am done for good with all self-loathing It’s not just you and I, Archives of abuse have made us. On our pain you thrive. It’s hard to want to care for you. Wrath rush running to my head I wanna watch you eat yourself Wrath rush running to my head I wanna watch you burn Wrath rush running to my head I wanna watch you eat yourself Wrath rush running to my head I wanna watch you burn! Hex you by the time it goes to your head Cause the credit you took is the wisdom we shared And we see how you drag our labour through dirt But dirt is our mother, her grazes don’t hurt So hex your power Your power’s ours Hex your power Your power’s ours Hex your power Your power’s ours Punch up, game on! Hex your power Your power’s ours Hex your power Your power’s ours Hex your power Your power’s ours
4.
Sâmca 04:46
Într-o seară ca oricare alta, Când luna abia se-mplini, M-ai zărit și cu groază pe chip, Te-ai oprit din a-mi zâmbi. Ce s-a-ntâmplat Sânziano, iubito, De te-ai apucat a fugi? M-am oglindit în pârâu și cu spaimă Am văzut de ce nu mă mai știi. Dărăpănată și despletită Stoarsă, plângândă și zdrențuită Am ajuns Sâmcă, cu pașii grei Umblând prin noapte, îi sperii pe-ai mei Cine m-a făcut, cine m-a urât Cine m-a luat și m-a blestemat Sigur un stăpân, sigur un băiat Cu râcă-n frunte și rânjet spart Nici tu, Sânziano, nu mă mai cunoști Că mi-ai fost iubită n-o să recunoști Vei trăi în frică, steaua mea apusă Vei trăi cuminte, vei trăi supusă Sunt fricile tale de oameni ca tine Pe care nu poți să le simți Sunt ura de clasă și sex ce te ține În lanțuri amare de-arginți Sunt Sâmcă, sunt Vâlvă, sunt falsa ta scuză Pentru cruzimea ce-ai rodit Brutală, nebună, femeie sub lună Erou ești că m-ai îngrădit Dărăpănată și despletită Stoarsă, plângândă și zdrențuită Am ajuns Sâmcă, cu pașii grei Umblând prin noapte, îi sperii pe-ai mei Cine m-a făcut, cine m-a urât Cine m-a luat și m-a blestemat Sigur un stăpân, sigur un bărbat Cu râcă-n frunte și rânjet spart Nici tu, Sânziano, nu mă mai cunoști Că mi-ai fost iubită n-o să recunoști Ca să nu ajungi ca mine de răpusă Vei trăi cuminte, vei trăi supusă.
5.
Hictopia 03:47
The masking years amassing wore my strength And nothing seems to rest my weary head If I allowed the show to finally end I fear no one would hold my weary hand. Unveiling parts unfeigned They surface interfacing, Raptured yielding, Quiet ease. Hold me together for a while. Hold me while I carry my whole height. Hope Hearts in heaps will harvest all they sowed. A rift in the substance of all incarnations Disturbing the sequence imposed by Empire Lies in the form of divergence but currently crumbles Under violent pressure The rift is incessantly deepening Causing its bearers to feel inextricably queer How can they stay with a present that feels so alien? How can they live with this burden? Fused, crawling, Yet to be birthed but already felt, A wisdom dawning With a vastness so hydrous it mutates the end. Hold it together for a while. Hold it while you carry your whole height. Hope Hearts in heaps will harvest all they sowed.

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An experimental pop odyssey exploring the transformational thread that sows utopianism to the possibilities of the here-and-now.

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released May 26, 2023

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Sofia Zadar Bucharest, Romania

What drives me to make music is the need for emancipatory imaginaries and togetherness. Beyond the anthropocene, our multispecies sensibilities connect sky to ground, past to future, human to non-human. I want to hold space for these intermeshing sensibilities in a way that centers the deep seated needs of my communities as well as our work to world new worlds. ... more

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